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TM - Father
Mar. 6th, 2006 09:18 pmWrite about my father? You actually want me to write about my FATHER?!
Where do I begin? How about the moments where finding sanity in his actions is like trying to find a needle in a haystack the size of Texas? Or the times in which he's actually tried to KILL me because I won't bend to his ways and values?
Or the other people who've tried to kill me to endear him, or rebuke him. Hell, every day I wake up wanting to know what my connection to him is going to cause me to go through. All because he is the blood in my body.
But... he's a father. My father. I've come to learn that you can't pick your parents. Most of the time, you pray that you don't turn into them. I know that I look like him, but I hope to God that I don't end up acting like him.
I don't want my daughter to fear me.
Where do I begin? How about the moments where finding sanity in his actions is like trying to find a needle in a haystack the size of Texas? Or the times in which he's actually tried to KILL me because I won't bend to his ways and values?
Or the other people who've tried to kill me to endear him, or rebuke him. Hell, every day I wake up wanting to know what my connection to him is going to cause me to go through. All because he is the blood in my body.
But... he's a father. My father. I've come to learn that you can't pick your parents. Most of the time, you pray that you don't turn into them. I know that I look like him, but I hope to God that I don't end up acting like him.
I don't want my daughter to fear me.
